Finding Friend - Part 1

Humans are social beings-

I'm seeing myself as a type who doesn't like being in a social relationship. Like looking into friendship, talk nicely with everyone I met or know.etc. I more like a quite person. Talk only if its matter, less smile and sometimes act shy. everyone around or just know me, keep saying the same way about me. they call me a difficult type, hard to understand.. I don't have a problem with the way they thing about me because they probably right  but it doesn't mean that I'm a bad person. I just not a social type. like my sister, my mom, or my neighbor. It'd probably the reason why till now I don't have a friend. 

but now when I face myself.., I already grow up. I just started my year as an adult. and I finally realized how lonely I am.. the way this lonely feeling keeps appear 24/7 in my life is insane and eat me up. I keep hungry and try looking for friends,anyone who I can make a conversation with, anyone who's been there and wanna talk with..but then I realize..it's not that simple to find a relationship called ' friend' . its actually difficult. it's actually tiresome...

I don't have anyone I know who ever closed to me'. I don'y even have a list of my friends contact from old school. I don't want to try this either. it's better to start with new people. And then I make a list. first thing to do : 

I join community / groups

The first day when I contact them is started really well. People in there are welcome me kindly. we make a 'chit chat ' conversation.I admit it was fun. 

But then by the tic toc time running..day past.. I slowly...begin to fade..and disappear... I can't get in the way they talk. the topic they bring are so not into me. The joke is not funny but why they laugh???

so I make an excuse,I leave.

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Hello & Welcome

Hello everyone ~

 this is the first entry I post in here  this blog will mostly about my personal stuff, anything on my mind that I wanna share, also thing that I interest. you might find this blog fun or just don't care and leave hahaha  whatever it is, thanks for click my page and visit  I would appreciate so much if you follow my blog, I'll make sure to follow back.

well, here's a little things about me

I’m not annoying :) , I love humor and beatiful place,

but I dislike pervert and rude people..

 Name: Just CallMeCrazy
 Hobbies: Reading books / manga, Listen to  music,and study (LoL)
 Things I Likes: Fashion, Literature, philosophy, internet, art,creativity
 Things I hates: Snake, stiff, bored, a fight and stress.

Sooo.. that’s about me....well, not all of it.it’s still more than that :)) keep reading this blog, and you'll find more 

Keep on your mind, Stranger isn't friend kkk~